magick musings…

happy – and not so happy – fourth of july…

Song of the day
If You’re Going Through Hell
by Rodney Atkins

If you’re going through hell
Keep on going
Don’t slow down
If you’re scared don’t show it
You might get out ‘fore the devil even knows you’re there

If you’re going through hell
Keep on moving
Face that fire
Walk right through it
You might get out ‘fore the devil even know you’re there

Happy Fourth of July to everyone! And many, many thanks to all those past, present, and future warriors who help to keep this nation free.

And many thanks to all the prayers and thoughts regarding my son and daughter-in-law, but with much sadness and heartbreak, they have decided to file for divorce. Hence, the song of the day.

For several days I was in a big, black mire of pain and tears, but due to the diligence of several wonderful, wonderful friends, I am now slowly pulling myself out of the life sucking quicksand. Everyone that knows me knows how much I love them and how close we all were. So, this totally knocked me out of the ballgame of life for awhile.

But I am a big girl (not literally, LOL), and they are grown people and have to make their own decisions and learn to live with those decisions. My wonderful daughter-in-law assures me that I will always have access to my three year old twin grandsons and as long as the twins can adjust – so can I.

It just hurts so bad.

We all have things in our life that motivate us, inspire us, and helps us through the hard times. And for me, it is music. And when I heard that song the other day, it was a wakeup and smell the vanilla latte for me.

We just might make it through this hell before the devil knows we’re there

~Sandy J

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9 Responses to “happy – and not so happy – fourth of july…”

wordnerd Says:

Wow! Here (for the first time) from Michele’s. Fantastic blog! I’ll be back, even without Michele’s prompting!!!

July 4th, 2006 at 11:59 am

Carmi Says:

Dropped in from Michele’s. And like the esteemed Wordnerd, I’ll be back, as your writing is captivating.

I’m so sorry to hear about your son and daughter-in-law. I wish there were some way to reinfuse happiness into a relationship, to prevent this sort of heartbreak from happening at all.

But the world isn’t such a simple place, and bad things will happen despite our best intentions.

You will all be in my thoughts and prayers as we celebrate this holiday today. May you know only happiness in future.

July 4th, 2006 at 12:06 pm

Rene Says:

Ah, that’s tough, Sandy. But it happens. I’m glad you are keeping a good relationship with your DIL for your grandkids sake. My dh and his wife split when their son was only 13 mos. old. It was an ugly divorce but they both did right by the kid and he saw plenty of both his grandparents.

July 4th, 2006 at 2:42 pm

Sandy Says:

Wordnerd: Thanks for visiting! Cool blog you have yourself!

Carmi: Thanks for saying such nice things. And you’re right, bad things happen to good people. But it only makes us stronger.

Rene: Glad you made it back from Vegas and hope you had a great time! I hope that holds true for us that we will be able to see the grandtwins often as we can.

July 4th, 2006 at 3:31 pm

Devon Ellington Says:

I’m so sorry. It’s such a difficult and painful decision for everyone involved.

Just take it day by day, and keep working on the individual relationship with your daughter-in-law, difficutl as that can be. Your grandkids are lucky to have such a wonderful grandmother, and your son and daughter-in-law are lucky to have you, too.

July 5th, 2006 at 8:06 am

Dennie Says:

Oh Geez = where have I been – I am so sorry, Hun! We’ll talk tonight when you get home from work!

hugs!

July 5th, 2006 at 11:00 am

Bailey Stewart Says:

I’m so sorry Sandy. That’s always hard, and people don’t realize just how hard it can be on the extended family too. My thoughts are with you hon.

July 5th, 2006 at 4:48 pm

Sandy Says:

Devon: Thanks! I hope she and I will continue our bond as we were not only MIL & DIL, but friends.

Dennie: Sounds good. Hope you had a great vacation.

Bailey: Thanks, Bailey, and I hope your A/C is fixed!